justrun-.

inspiring

that's the word to describe how it was like to welcome the four of them home. it was far from what i'd expected. haha. it was very odd how i was suddenly so excited. was stressing over the roses and cards beforehand. lol. rushed to finish them up in the car... i hope they liked them! whee.

at the airport- THE champion, attempting to strangle clarissa and i
nice to be in the presence of greatness :D

didn't expect so many small kids to come.

it's just very amazing what your mental frame of mind can do to you. it makes or it breaks you. but ultimately, i think your heart controls all. if you have a heart full of passion, that can overcome any shit mental state your in.

maybe i'm just saying that to comfort myself. hurhurhur. cos my mental strength is near zero :D teeheehee. really. the list of races i've done badly in due to my mental barriers is so long that even i can't remember all. but if i looked at my list of comps i've taken part in, i'd say at least 80-90% of them i died during cos of my head.

okay let's see. one of the most terrible races i remember was nat inter sch 800m finals 2004. i was top 6? until the last 100m. LOL. then i dropped until some absurd unmentionable position. my time was so screwed. didn't get any points for the schoo. but don't talk about that, cos right now? i can't even do anything NEAR that time. i just find it so... demoralizing, that everytime i seem to overcome a mental barrier, my physical ability just goes down. into the DITCHES.

i just wish at least my injured rectus femorises will HEAL. asthma i know how to strengthen.

there is hope, i hope...

[pat]* decided to runaway-.

put on her shoes at [12:14]

and took [20051205] strides

it's the passion that drives you